But it never ends. It seems as soon as I complete one task, I add a new one. Soon, all the accomplishment and fun out of getting things done disappears as I stress that it's 3:00 in the afternoon and "I still have so much to do!"
I slowly start to treat things that should be fun and relaxing--writing a blog post, emailing a friend, working on my story, as ominous to dos that MUST be done.
I become torn between the "important" things of the day--my schoolwork, household chores, and helping my mom and the things I love to do-reading, writing, photographing flowers.
Then I start thinking. What is the point of all this? I rush to get everything done today only to have to do the same thing-or new things-- all over again tomorrow. It never ends. What does it gain me???
What does man gain from all his labor at which he toils under the sun?
The sun rises and the sun sets, and hurries back to where it rises.
All things are wearisome, more than one can say. The eye never has enough of seeing, nor the ear its fill of hearing. What has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun.
Ecclesiastes 1: 8-9
These frantic thoughts were skimming through my head when I remembered.
the meaning of life is to glorify our God.
The meaning is not to accomplish goals. Not to cross items off my to do list. Not to go to bed feeling proud in my productive day. Not stressing over having enough time to do all I want and should do.
It's about praising God. Glorifying Him. Serving Him in everything I do. To give Him my best. To show His love and mercy to others-even if it's just to my own family.
Everyone once in awhile I need to sit down and remind myself to take it slow. Spend some time poring over my Bible and absorbing what the words are saying to me. I need to sit in the sun filtering through the trees in late afternoon. Watch the fireflies blinking in the dusk and feel the breeze coming through my window and filling my lungs with fresh cool air.
Sometimes it's okay to relax. To forget about the to do lists, the emails piled up in my inbox, the half-finished school assignment. I'm not saying I shouldn't do these things, of course! Just that I shouldn't let them be a cause of worry and stress to me. If I let them do that, I'm letting my focus from God be distracted and distorted. How can I do what He wants me to do if I'm distracted like that? How can I help my mom with dinner if I'm stressed over a school assignment? How can I patiently answer my brother's question if I'm lamenting over the lack of hours in the day? Wasting time worrying over the time I have to get things done is just that-a waste of time. And how pointless is it to be wasting time over THAT--the exact thing I want more of! (okay....sorry if that was a little jumbled.)
Anyways, this is something I catch myself struggling with now and again. But, I know that I can and will conquer it through Jesus. Already I am becoming more and more aware of when I fall into this habit of thinking, and am grateful that with God's help, I can stop.
Life is too precious to just "exist". Crossing things off a to do list is just existing. Working with a joyful heart and seeing and appreciating God's blessings while doing so is living. I just think it's so important to "stop and smell the roses". That could mean different things for different people. I want to enjoy the life God has given me--not rush through it stressed on completing my to-do list!
Which, if I look at it, is usually not "life or death" tasks anyways. ;)
Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? Matthew 6:27
I feel like I rambled on a bit and went off in a couple different directions... but hopefully you got what I'm trying to say. :)
Do any of you feel the same way? I'd love to hear how you combat "to-do list stress". haha
ps. I took all of these pictures with my new 35mm 1.8 lens!!!
Guys....it's a-mazzzing. I'm having so much fun with it.