If that post title didn't get your attention, I don't know what will. :P
But calm down. It's not that desperate. No, my parents are not locking me in the tower, refusing to let me continue my education. I'm not one of those girls in the movies who yearn to go to college, despite the shocked disapproval of friends and family.
Nope, I simply don't want to go.
I know several of my blog readers/friends are girls who have decided to forgo the traditional route of going to college immediately after high school. In fact, they've decided not to go at all. I know even more bloggers (not readers/friend heh heh) who also have done that. So, I know I'm not alone in this venture.
I'm not against college. I certainly don't think other girls (or guys, for that matter) are wrong to go to college; yes, I've thought about going to college; yes, sometimes I wish I were going to college! But, for right now at least, I don't plan on going. (I have seriously thought about doing some college classes locally or online, but for right now, that's not in my immediate plans, either.)
The reason for this post is not to defend my stance or to argue college vs. no college or anything like that. But I really would love some advice. Some ideas. Some encouragement. If any of you non-college people out there have some of that, I would love to hear from you. (College-people are welcome, too, although you might not be able to relate as much. :P)
I've had a pretty tough time getting adjusted to life without the pressure of schoolwork. Rest assured, I haven't been sitting around twiddling my thumbs, but there have been moments where I sit and wonder what in the world I'm doing, because I feel entirely lost as to my "purpose" anymore.
I don't mean my purpose in living. I know what my real purpose is. It's to glorify my King and Savior, Jesus Christ. It's to obey Him and love Him, and hopefully help point some people toward Him.
But life also consists of work. Of making goals, of completing goals, of dreaming and trying and failing and trying again. Being in high school was simple. "Don't worry about anything past the next four years because you're relatively stuck until you finish your education anyways." And I did. Now I'm as free as an aquarium fish released into the ocean and I'm like....whaaat do I doooooo.
I actually told my mom just yesterday that not only did I really enjoy NaNoWriMo, I think it helped me define a goal. I want to finish my book. I want to publish it. And then, maybe publish another.
It'll take a lot of work, a lot of time, and a lot of energy, but I want to do it. It's possible. And, Lord willing, I'm going to do it.
And that's only one of the ways I plan to keep myself busy. Just because I'm not going to college and am done with high school doesn't mean I can't still learn. There are so many books I want to read. Especially nonfiction. I want to make myself sit down and LEARN those hard pieces of music on the piano. I want to cook more food. I want to try out for a play or musical. I want to get a job and earn some money so I can travel and visit blogging friends (haha) (no, seriously, though). I want to continue to study photography. I want to expand my horizons and try new things and learn not to be afraid of making mistakes, because that IS how we learn.
But in the meantime, I'm sure I'll still have days where I lament my lack of a social life (blogging IS my social life....) and wonder if maybe I should be going to college "like everybody else".
It's hard seeing most of the people your age going off on their exciting college adventure (although I know most people say college is anything but fun after the first year or so haha) while you're stuck at home, like you have been ever since childhood. It's hard seeing others get to be independent, make new friends, and basically be part of a world you know nothing about.
But I know that deep down I don't want to go. At least not yet. I like being different, and I like to be able to do what I love without spending a ton of money and moving away from home for four years (I'm kind of a contradiction, aren't I? First I say I'm stuck at home, then I say I don't want to leave home. See why I have such trouble? I'm hopeless). A lot of what I yearn to do does NOT require a college degree, and I've seen some people become very successful in those fields without one. It is possible to survive in life without going to college. Not going to college doesn't mean I'll be working at McDonald's.
For all of you readers (I keep refraining from saying "girls", although I'm pretty sure 99% of my readers are females) who didn't go to college I'd love to hear what your personal stories are.
What made you decide not to go to college?
Did you ever feel purposeless after finishing high school?
Was it hard seeing other people your age going off to college without you?
Was it hard for friends or family to understand why you weren't going?
What were avenues you found to explore that helped you get out of your comfort zone and try new things, all while still living at home?
Do you have any encouraging words of wisdom??
Well. I'd better go now. I'm not sure if this post makes any sense, but if you're here, thank you for reading my ramblings. Life is amazing. I wouldn't want it all laid out like a map in front of me. I love the adventure and surprise that it brings, but I admit that I struggle with being content in all the situations God puts me in.
I really like this song right now. I know some people probably think I won't get anywhere in life by not going to college, but that's okay. In the end, nothing matters more than trusting God no matter what, and I plan on doing that. Even when my life is nothing but a HUGE question mark. :D
Okay, I really must end this. Right now I should be making some tortilla wraps so we have food for dinner tonight.
(.....for tacos. We're not eating JUST tortillas. :P)
Please don't be afraid to spam my comment box, but keep it kind and encouraging, my friends. :)