May 4, 2018

"take the road less traveled on"



Roads are fascinating. Some are twisty, some are straight as a pin. Some go up over hills, some go between mountains, some cross bodies of water on these death-defying things called bridges. (Seriously though, bridges are kind of scary sometimes.)

Some are quiet. So quiet you could pull your car over to the side of the road, let your windows down and just sit while summery twilight air fills your lungs.

Others are crazy. So crazy they scare you and put that tense feeling between your shoulders as you try to be aware of every car in front of, behind, beside you.

Why am I talking about roads, friends? Because life is a series of roads. (Wow, cliche, right?) (But it's true.)

A lot of new things have happened to me lately. Or are happening to me right now. Or will be happening. One of them is that I'll be starting some college classes this fall (I hope). "What??" you say. "Wasn't this the girl who practically swore off college as 'not for her'? The girl who said, 'who needs it anyways?' 'I want to be independent and unique and go against the grain'?

Yeah. Well. I feel the same way. In a lot of ways, I haven't felt as if I've KNOWN myself lately. Things I used to be adamantly against I'm now open to trying and things I used to want to try now seem unimportant, etc etc.

Being the anxious worrier that I am, I can't help but panic and think that the last two years have been all for naught. Maybe I SHOULD have gone to college right away instead of spending my time trying to start a photography business, working on my writing and keeping up a blog and doing all sorts of odds and ends. I tried a lot. And while some of it is still stuff I am determined to work at, some of it isn't what I want anymore. And I guess that's okay.

Sometimes I fall into seeing life as only straight paths, point a to point b. So when I find myself on paths that have seemingly NOTHING to do with point a or b I get discouraged and think that path was a waste of time.

But I can't help but think that maybe God's way IS the way with the bumpy dirt roads, narrow bicycle paths, and broken asphalt back roads. Because then we see things we'd never see if we hadn't turned down those side roads. We'd never see that field of colorful flowers, we'd never explore a winding trail through the woods where sunlight is sparse and shadows thick, and we'd never pass that beautiful view of the ocean that you'd never find from the expressway.

(I'm just making this all up, I have no particular roads in mind right now haha)

Everyone's path in life is different, and everyone needs to go at a different speed. But personally, I've found that I'm grateful to have taken "the road less traveled". (I don't agree with everything that song says, but the general point matches my post. :P)

If I hadn't, I might not have had to think and ponder and pray about my life so much. But that's the thing. I've learned to trust God and His timing and His plan in ways I'm not sure I'd have learn otherwise. I'm learning to find my purpose in Him. I'm learning to be satisfied by Him. And along His way, He also surprised me with joy and happiness and experiences I never thought possible.

God will teach us what we need to be taught, no matter where we are in life. But I think it's worth remembering (for me, anyways) that no amount of worldly "success" in life compares to experiencing God's love and trust.



Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough?
To where will you go child?
Tell me where will you run, to where will you run?
'cause I'll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don't fight these hands that are holding you
-By Your Side, Tenth Avenue North





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The above post you just read was written more than a month ago. Things have changed quite a bit since I wrote it, and yet I felt that I should share this post regardless. Learning to trust God is something I'm always dealing with, so I still wanted to share it with you all. I hope it encourages someone. <3

PS. What think you of my new blog design? (Yes, I know it changes constantly. I just can't figure out what I want my blog's "look" to be.)

10 comments:

  1. Awwww <33333
    Thank you for your words! I needed them today.
    And I love your new look!
    As a side note: That Tenth Avenue North song is one of the few I listen to and love <3

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    1. I'm so glad, LaKaysha!! Thank you so much!!!

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  2. AAAAAAHHHHH I LOVE EVERYTHING.

    The new look, the post . . . gahh. You have outdone yourself, m'dear. :)

    The look: SQUEE I LOVE THAT PICTURE OF YOU. <3 And I just love how this is simple, but somehow not TOO simple. I feel like this wood background can be hard to use effectively, but it's LOVELY the way you did it. It just makes one feel welcomed and happy and reminds one of pleasant summer days and back roads and trees and shade and flowers and grass and swings and ALL THINGS NICE AND COMFY. <3

    Ahem. I really like it, if you can't tell. ;)

    The post: This is lovely, too! "God will teach us what we need to be taught, no matter where we are in life." << AMEN PREACH. Do you get the thing where you worry that if you choose a certain "path" or "direction," that'll forever be your destiny and there'll be no way to come back from it if it doesn't turn out to be the right one?? I struggle with that. So this was encouraging! (And also so prettily writtennnnnnnnn . . . <3333)

    I love that Tenth Avenue North song! It has special meaning to me. <3

    Thanks so much for sharing this! I appreciate it. :) (Aaaaand I also appreciate the blog look. Hehe.)

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    1. EEEEK THANK YOU!!!!! <3 <3 <3

      Awww. Thanks. :) AND OH MY GOODNESS that was exactly the feel I was trying to achieve!!! I'm so glad you like it!! *hugs*

      YUUSSS. Very much! You are certainly not alone in that feeling. :D I worry too that I can somehow "ruin" God's "best" for me. Like, if I don't talk to a certain person or take an opportunity that comes along then I missed something God has planned for me. As if I have the power to ruin anything He has planned! So yes. I feel ya. :) (Gahhh thank you!!)

      Yay!! It's a special one. <3

      Thank you for your lovely comment! *hugs*

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  3. Natalie!! I don't know how you manage to write such lovely posts, but man! This one was awesome! Well said, girl!! <3 <3 <3

    I'm so sorry it's been such a bumpy road for you lately. Don't feel like you're alone in this. Change is hard for everyone, and making decisions? Well that's just hard anytime, right? *wink* Seriously though, life is never as clear cut as we hope it will be, and it's easy to worry when you have no clue where things are going. But yes, it's times like that when we really learn to trust God! And if that's what you're learning than I believe you're right where you ought to be!! *HUGS*

    Also...the new look!! It's beautiful! <3 And THAT PICTURE OF YOU!!!! AWWWWWWWWW! It just makes me so happy to see your beautiful face!! You're the best! Love you, friend!! <3 <3

    Thanks for sharing your heart with us again. Like I said, this post was awesome! Well done.

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    1. <3 Awwww. Thanks!

      I'm glad we can support each other in these things...especially the decision making. ;D Awww so true!! Thank you!! *HUGS*

      Eeek, I'm so glad you like it!! *blushes* Thank you!! You're the best!! <3

      I'm so glad you think so. Thank you for the lovely comment. :D You're always so encouraging!! (Also...ONE WEEK.)

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  4. Thank you for this post!
    Trusting God on the smooth and the crazy roads is hard. But I think it is important for us to realize that each road we take, whether in the past, present, or future, they all happen for a reason.
    Oh and I really like you new design! Love the purple flowers;-). And I have the wood background on my blog too!
    Thanks for sharing this post!!!
    -Brooklyne

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    1. So glad you like the design, Brooklyne, and thank you for sharing your thoughts!! What you said is very true. :)

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  5. Aww, I love this post Natalie! And your blog look is so gorgeous! That header picture is so beautiful, and the background, (and THE PICTURE OF YOU <3)!! It's wonderful. :)
    I can definitely relate to this. SO MUCH. Like Olivia said, sometimes I'm afraid I'll pick the wrong path and won't be able to go back and get stuck on it forever... which is so ridiculous when you think about it. It's pretty much us thinking our problems are bigger than our God, which is NEVER the case. Our God is so much bigger than any of struggles, troubles or concerns. And it's such a relief to know that it's never too late to start afresh, to ask for forgiveness or to run back and be safe in the arms of our Father. We are never too far gone for Him, no matter how many silly mistakes we make. And His patience and forgiveness is never ending.

    I'm so glad you can see that the last two years of your life weren't a waste. Even if you only learnt one thing, even if you only grew a little bit closer to God, then it was all worth it. And I'm sure there is a purpose behind everything. Just enjoy every day that the Lord gives you. <3

    I hope you're doing well and still staying peaceful and calm amidst a busy season of your life. <3 <3 <3

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    1. Thanks, Gabby!!!

      Riiiiight?? So glad you relate and can understand! (I mean...I'm NOT glad you struggle with that, too, but I'm glad we can support each other. :D)

      Yes yes yes. Amen!

      Awww, thank you. Your encouragement is awesome. :D

      *hugs* <3

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